Three weeks after her crushing loss to Holly Holm in Australia, Ronda Rousey is finally discussing the fallout. Her perfect record dashed, Rousey now admits to being sad, embarrassed and a whole cocktail of emotions following her surprise defeat.

In a gripping interview with ESPN's Ramona Shelburne, Rousey looks back and can pinpoint the moment where she realized she would lose to Holm: After the challenger landed the first punch on Rousey's mouth.

Rousey said she also noticed herself thinking and behaving in ways much different than normal. And all of that is motivation as she looks ahead -- far ahead, granted -- to a rematch with Holm.

As for Rousey's reputation, she thinks it's all in limbo until she fights Holm again.

"I guess it's all going to be determined by what happens in the rematch," Rousey says. "Everything is going to be determined by that. Either I'll win and keep going or I won't and I'll be done with everything."

Is that a promise to quit the UFC, or more reflective of her current state of mind? It's hard to tell. Either way, any big changes to Rousey's reputation seem a long way off. She has planned to take a hiatus from fighting until next summer. In the meantime, she'll be filming movies and working on other side projects.

And as UFC head Dana White said, Rousey's fame might have only grown because of her first loss. That may or may not be true, but one thing is certain: When she does come back, everyone will be watching.

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